You remember knex?

Quite honestly, playing with knex and legos as a kid was way more entertaining then any other video game, movie, song, or otherwise I've ever partaken of in my life. I mean I could create anything I wanted and dream up any device that I saw fit. I could make entire universes and make the story lines go however I wanted. I could literally just play inventor/god for hours/days/months/years, and watch heroes fight the mightiest of foes or watch them fly the coolest of spacecraft, and live in the coolest of houses, all that I designed completely on my own. 

Now I've grown up considerably, and as I've been doing so, I went through a gaming phase. I could sit and watch as I controlled the mightiest of heroes fight kinda cool bad guys and race in kinda alright looking cars, and live through the decent story lines. All the while I was trying to do the exact same thing I did as a kid, I was just role playing with much lamer characters and elements along with the fact that I had no control over anything whatsoever besides whether the main character dies or not, or more realistically; how many times the main character died. Same thing with watching movies, the only difference is that this time you don't have control over pretty much anything! 

So basically we never really grew up. We matured to the point where it was unacceptable to obsess so much over fantasy things, which was the entirety of our imaginative selves, and to do so we stopped creating, but instead of grounding ourselves in reality, we kept obsessing, and instead of making use of the obsession and creating things like we did as kids, we sit down and live in pre-packaged fantasy. 

We watch and play things that are just as unrealistic, fantasy, or epic as we created as kids, except we aren't creating them anymore, were just bathing in them. So we really didn't mature did we? We actually took a step down, demoting ourselves from our aspiring god-like status to lazy couch-potato, and kept indulging in the very thing we set out to grow out of.

So why is it totally cool for me to get on the computer and play Starcraft or something like that, and really really not okay for me to pull out all my favorite childhood action figures and have an imaginary action figure adventure? It sounds completely stupid and childish, but other then the fact you'd be ignoring the label "For ages 6 to 12" the real difference is a habit of creation and a habit of indulgence. The kids are creating your entertainment, and you are indulging in it. By "kids" I mean grown men and women with heads buzzing full of strange ideas, writing them onto paper, drawing them, acting them, and animating them. 

Sure though, as far as we know, you can't make a living playing with knex and action figures, but you can't make a real living watching movies and playing video games either. Then why aren't there more movie or video game developers out there? Why aren't people realizing that they have just as much right to create that they did as kids, and just because they can't do it with kids toys, doesn't mean they can't do it with a computer, a wrench, a hammer, a pencil, a paintbrush, a welder, a guitar, a piano, your own ability to move, a glue gun, or a video camera. Or if your gutsy enough and somehow know a way to keep yourself alive and healthy with it, do it with knex again.

Anyway... 

The difference between adulthood and childhood is that we stopped creating and started indulging.

Quick rant on the fine arts

So what's been bothering me in a lifetime of trying to re-educate most artists, is that the modern idea of fine arts makes a disaster of what art really is. The main point of real art is not aesthetic appearance or how attractive it is, it's the emotion behind it, it's the story behind it, and what the artist thinks when they look at it. If your making art just for marketability and attracting eyes, your not making art period.

Art is abtracted communication. Dancing is art, artistic gymnastics is art, music is art, and painting, sculpting, drawing, etc is also. This applies only if your making it to communicate a message, depict a feeling, tell a story, etc... Art is a message. I don't mean to sound like a gypsy/hipster/snob to non-artists and others, but the point is that once your creating an image for the purpose of marketing, though force, only impressing people, and disregarding your own ideas and creativity, and begin religiously following "composition", "rhetoric", "form", and in some cases even "theory" your sacrificing something that would have made your art much much more valuable, relateable, and devouring the emotional value. Form, theory, composition, etc... they're all great to use, as they help guide or improve your ability to express yourself, but once you think they're actual rules, the figurative, emotional, and often even the economical value of whatever your doing becomes torn to shreds.

The best artists out there are those of people who taught themselves purely on their own. Not because of discipline, but because they learned creative independence, something that gets lost in the front lines of being trained in rhetoric.

The independent thought lets the artist realize "I can do what I want. I can make what I want how I want, and whoever tells me my work is worth less because it's image or sound isn't purely glorified is an absolute idiot, because my work is MY OWN." Composition, form, and theory are only structure. They can help depict more realistically, help emphasize emotional connection, and even I practice it, but never let it sacrifice the personal worth of your work. I'm not saying all of your work has to be deep, but art is something to interpret, not carry bounds. There is no "set" way to depict anything. There are methods, but no rules.

Art is communicational anarchy.

Okay. Done.

Let's get rid of school everyone, I have a better idea

What if we completely dumped the concept of "school" and replaced it with something that emphasized independence and creativity, and instead of teaching various subjects, or "giving kids all the tools they need to operate the world" it gave kids the ability think so creatively, and make, accomplish, or learn anything from scratch, that they really COULD operate the world. Along they way they would teach themselves the basics like reading, math, etc... but instead of slowly filling kids heads with temporary information, we made them geniuses, who quickly received any information, acted to accomplish any task in their own creative manner, and were independent enough not to take garbage from the media, glovernment, nay-sayers (negative people), and smart and disciplined enough not to waste all their time on video games, drugs, tv, etc... They would literally not sit for any lecture at all, and only work to accomplish a single task.

Along the way they would run into road blocks, where they may have to learn a new language, mathematics, piano, or some new skill, or make a certain amount of money to gain a resource, all to accomplish one single task.
The only supervision they would receive was singled out organizational supervision, or help on how to find or learn different resources to continue working to accomplish X task at the end of a term. Instead of classes, subjects, and grades, etc... they could have a universal goal for each grade level, and by the end of the year, or time period they would have to somehow accomplish that goal. They could start out with easy goals to reach in early levels, but the higher and higher you get, the more long term the goal, and the less resources the system would directly provide you to accomplish it, making you do more and more work on your own, and having more and more discipline to work up to each level.

To actually MOTIVATE the "students" as they're currently called, those who REACH that goal are actually REWARDED. Yes, REWARDED. Is that crazy? No. In real life, when we accomplish real life goals we are REWARDED in some way or another. In school they train us to think that failure to perform is not rewarded but only punished, which demotivates kids not to try their best. In real life, our lack of performance do cause unwanted "punishments" but with progress we also receive REWARDS. The system I came up with would both not let you progress to the next level if you don't meet standards, but also somehow REWARD you if you do.
I don't mean they get 1000 dollars cash prize, but something that could help them better their abilities, something they can be happy about, and still perform for the purpose of performing better and better.

In the end, you'd end up with a bunch of super humans doing exactly what they want to do in the world, smart enough not to accept garbage presented without thoroughly looking into what is being handed them, and tough enough not to wander in dark places.
A REAL perfect system is a system that gets everyone exactly what they need, where they are all perfectly capable, motivated, and moving to accomplish what they need, and it doesn't do it by force, punishment, or an unrealistic and unreasonably strict environment.


And that's my idea. Hooray.

Typing and seeing what comes out...

The earth is made of brain cells. Nothing but brain cells. It takes up various forms and sends signals to itself to make it's inhabitants think that they're separate entities. When we walk outside, look at the ground, and kick the dirt, we're really just kicking a spectral entity that truly has no shape or form. Nothing has any shape or form. It's just you. It's just everyone. It's everyone living in another's game. Every time you take a pencil and draw a pretty little picture, write out a story, or space off in your own little world, your doing it on your own. Your not drawing an unrealistic piece of your imagination, your taking your brain, and making your own world with it. Your just creating an alternate reality, that's all. Your taking characters, worlds, and stuffs, and putting them in their own little room and telling them that they, the organisms within your world, are real, that they have feelings, and that they have personality. You've just created your own entity. You haven't even dreamed it up, you've created the spirit of something new. It's long lasting though, it not eternal as we are. Our souls exist for eternity, as the universe we live in does too, and the organisms and objects in our own universes are short lived, just as short lived as our imaginative creations are. We think the world around us is real, tangible, and holds form, but really, we are truly the spirits of ones imagination. We've been put here, been given order, land, animals, and an imagination of our own. The only reason we exist is because of the profound comprehension and imagination of our creator. When you dream up a world of your own, where maybe you live within it and live the way you've always wanted, or new characters do their own thing, and live the way you've expected them to based off of your own opinions of them. Your only doing to them what our creator has done to us. The only reason it doesn't feel real is because of our separation of our own reality from any interfering entities. The reason it doesn't feel real is because of the way our world is so isolated. We can't see our imagination because we've been put in a box, where our creations are dwelling elsewhere. The only thing holding you back from godlike power is the mortal spirit of time and human imperfection. Time is just as short lived as our imagination. As time passes, we become rushed, we get stuck in loops, and gain or lose opportunity. This trains us to think that everything has a beginning and an end. When we think in beginning and ends, we treat our creations, intents, and interactions in the form of beginning and ends. This creates a preset to think that everything you've imagined had a beginning, and will eventually have an end. The truth lies in the fact that your imagination had existed forever just as your soul had existed, it had existed all along waiting for you to come along and finally dream it up, but in turn we use them temporarily, eventually shut them down. Doing this unintentionally creates a slingshot effect. What comes up must come down. We can never really shut anything down, we only can hold it down for a moment.
As death comes to us, everything we've done, created, inspired, and helped flashes before our eyes. What's happening is your brain is doing the math to give you your final number, a final label, and that label will last for eternity just as your soul, essence, and memory will. This label will eventually return to us, to revive us, because as we endure death and purgatory, the label still exists, and the label cannot exist alone. This label has to eventually bring you back into the universe you had created it in. The price for it's wait, and how long your endured death is an exaggeration of our previous lives. Evil becomes misery, good becomes happiness, and our carnal bodies will become as eternal as our souls were originally, as our bodies must exist as long as our labels, and our labels will exist for eternity. The cause of this is all creations come back to us. The worlds we've created, the ideas, the intents, the actions, they are all systems, and within every system is a universe of it's own nomatter how big or small. They all come back to us and we live the life we've created.
The only problem is that every man or woman eventually creates something fowl. Everyone eventually creates the spirit of malice, or non-fulfilling desire. It would create a prick or a crack in the foundations of everything they create. How could one live happily for eternity if their world was not perfect?

Hmmm. Figuratively speaking. Hehehehehe...

A Thought

Isn't it weird, that despite all this civil revolution of the human race on earth, with us taking nature and molding it into our own tools and resources, and everything around us gradually converting from nature to mankind, that no matter how much you see everything we've tempered, you look up at the sky and, completely barren from human touch, we haven't even put a dent in it.

 It's like no matter how much we progress and build, we'll always be able to look up and be back where we started.

I want my arms and legs back

I believe an organism only comprehends within it's own physical potential. Does a cow envy a humans cleanliness, uprightness, and variety of foods to eat? Does a plant know how much it's missing out not being a mammal and being able to walk all the way across the grass to the food on the other side? Do house cats and dogs seem more eager to learn to design, tinker, and manipulate it's surroundings like it's owner, or simply run free and explore?

Now what about this: Humans at their utmost potential mainly express themselves mostly in abstraction and usually create in the process. They also have a tendency to try playing God. We like to create stories of power, Godliness, super-humanism, freedom, and wish we could live basically forever. We fear death, not because of instinct or pain, but because we don't understand it. We fear the unknown, and envy that which is all-powerful. We ENVY the all-powerful, and either consciously or unconsciously strive for it continually.

Plus we're the only race on earth which has somehow evolved so quickly to the point we're perpetually upright, perpetually hairless, use technological substitutes for instinct or physical limitations, and despite our physical weakness, are currently managing every other race on the planet, and yet it's not enough. We're still begging for more. We can't be aliens because we live off the planet too well, and we couldn't have branched from the same organisms we live with because we're a millennium ahead of them.

It's almost like we're all veterans who all lost our limbs some time ago, and are going mad from lack of ability. But did we lose them, or have we even developed them yet?
What are we? What are we working for?

Believe in yourself.

Being a kid was awesome

As my first post I'd just like to make some opening statements on being a kid.

Being a kid was great, around every corner, every curtain, and every door held something new, or something unexplored. Literally everything was interesting because we didn't know anything about anything.

Now I'm growing up, I've seen pretty much everything there is to see in an average American town. There's grass, fence, bugs, dirt, houses, pavement, people, cafe's shops, streets, trees, benches, aaaaand cars.

That's quite a bit considering the variety of things you are in each of those categories, but... it's all consistent, it's all predictable. When we look at a variety of things for too long, everything becomes bland, and we eventually take it for granted.


My whole life I've had the curiosity of a 2 year old. When I was young I would look behind curtains to see what mysteries it may hold. I would look under the couch to see what treasure was buried, peak or sneak into rooms or hallways I've never been before, and tear apart items to see what mechanisms ruled our world.
Now I like to just browse the web to learn of an eternal amount of information waiting to be explored. The difference is that instead of learning directly through application or experience, I'm just reading it. Nothing really sticks as well as when I was young.

As a substitute for exploration I build, invent, write, and theorize. I do these for no other reason then discovery.

Basically I feel like the world has become so uniform and predicable,  that I end mentally bored, and make my own odd/uniqueness for me to indulge in.

And I wonder if everyone else does this too. We grow up, when early on we explore and see the brand new world as it is, as naive and gullible as we are, there could be any amount of amazing possibilities around every corner.
My theory is that the human mind, when not presented with enough brand new input to work with, or brand new ideas/systems to compute, ends up creating it's own, therefore it still entertains itself, while inadvertently creating systems/ideas for others to explore.

Well, what doesn't help my theory is the fact that nobody is exploring or creating anymore! People grow up, take everything for granted, then just accept life as it is.

Nobody wants to live in the real world except kids anymore, because they're the ones who are still exploring.

Video games, inventions, novels, music, art, etc... every single individual piece is something every man on earth has never seen, read, or heard before. Every piece is completely unique in it's own right and has a completely new universe to explore.

- Using the term "universe" very loosely, as in any working system or organization of things/ideas.

People who don't do this are simply those who were crushed by societies degrading antics early in their lives, - OR - they continue to explore in the world of creation but never create anything of their own.

- Referring to societies degrading antics as things such as public education; "Do as I say, not as you think, as I am thinking for you." Basically the public school system has taught that there will always be someone there to think and provide paths for us instead of us doing any important work or decisions ourselves.


So basically fiction is a way people can play god because they can't find anything better around them.

Wouldn't it be great if everyone participated in this mass movement of perpetual creation, invention, and fabrication?
Like if there was even more new ideas and processes for us to explore to the point where people actually go outside, see things they've never seen before, and feel entitled to continue exploring?

-Oh, and if public schools would stop shunning creativity or ingenuity. That would be really cool too.

Childhood was fun.